Saturday, April 24, 2010

what kind of guy?

I am at a funny little spot in life - trying to figure out what I want. My core wants/needs are all being met, and now it's time to focus on a different phase... my personal stuff. Lately, I've been thinking more and more about dating, relationships, regular male interaction type stuff - not anything serious or long lasting, just stuff. My kid is getting older and so am I. I'm ready to venture out in that world again.

Here's the problem. I don't know what I want. I am consistently mistaken for a good bit younger than what I am and I feel that way... my friends laugh as younger men are also drawn towards me - right up until they discover the age difference. However, as much as I want the energy and enthusiasm and a bit of that mentality I also want someone who is older and wiser and comfortable in who they are with a touch more maturity - yet without being old and fuddy and fussy. I've not really met an available man that meets that criteria.

I don't know what to do, and so in this instance I do nothing at all. I wait a bit longer and when it's right I'll get it. Or it will get me. One or the other.