How to Maintain Coherency...

That really is a question rather than an instructional heading. I'm trying to discover the answer on a daily basis.

This whole icky nerve pain/numbness thing has the Drs temporarily (I stress the temporarily part) baffled - as there are few MDs whole like to admit they are without an answer they tend to medicate the crap out of me! I recently started treatment with a Dr outside of the regular insurance loop. When we got to reviewing my meds - he looked at me and asked "Are you sure that's what you're supposed to be taking?" After an affirmative response, and a viewing of the Rx bottles in my bag, he then asked, "Did you drive yourself here?" After yet another referral outside the system, and another increase by those silly neuro docs, this new doc asked "How are you walking??"

Sometimes I wonder myself.

Let me tell you, this isn't the fun and kicks you'd expect from heavy screw you up meds combined with every increasing amounts of heavy screw you up opiates...shall I remind you, I'm just another human being trying to raise a kid on her own, maintain a household, and retain a sense of self respect and individuality.

It's not so easy when you can't open your eyes all the way.